Its worth waiting for .the .....MOMENT

Its so early ..and yet i have been updating a few more lines to my blog .. but believe me the days are going on as some bloody years .. but now well i must say i am lucky i found a sight of something which makes me feel so good that i felt like sharing them with you .... now i dont even know how right i have interpreted the stuff
but still its worth sharing i guess .....


It has been about more than several years from now when there was a super cyclone ..it had almost broken away many trees ..taken away many of the lives and even there were so many broken monuments .
Now it was so dark since few days because of the weather things were gloomy and dark and the sunrise today made me feel to peep out of the window...
Just to see how does the place looks it was so green around ..i could just recall those days when everything was broken around the place the trees and the swings in the children's garden .. then i stared at those broken see saw which was lying as it was ...it had even lost its color and was rusted .....but the trees around had grown greener and the flowers....looked much more beautiful than it were in those days ...

I thank the person in charge of maintenance of the see saw its because i have learned the most beautiful and hopefully the best lesson that can never leave me broken and sad until i have my life ...


I had forgot that i am a human ..i found myself just as the lifeless see saw which was broken and needed someone to come for its rescue to rebuilt it and in fact i was looking for such sympathy... ..oh!! i forgot to look at those green trees which were again blooming with greenery .. and now i have known the fact well that things which have......Life can never loose the battle to be happy and prosper ..it just need some time and it will be so again ...

May be i have to wait for some more time may be the moment has not arrived ...but then love never takes years to arrive its just a moment of time ..it just took a moment to notice the tree which has bloomed again and fall in love with nature .. i wont just stand as the lifeless see saw ..I am alive and will prosper as the trees.... until one day she feel what i felt for her ..and even my faith lies on that very moment which must come one day and its worth
waiting for that MOMENT ....

Life is just like the tree whose roots are like the love in your life and earth is like the hope which nurtures it ...may be broken but always it will bloom on its own until it proves its worth ... and if u think to uproot the roots from the soil ..u can always find being just as the dead see saw falling there on the ground pleading for a help

I am still alive ..and learned from those trees full of life ... happy to wait for that MOMENT ..which is worth to wait ............and even happily waiting for death to brace me if it comes before the moment

SHAMELESS .... never ...HOPELESS.....

Its been 2 days ... now i even dont get words for writing a little poem .. to describe my thoughts ..
but today i am able to recall an incident when i was a kid .. its about a race we called it " chocolate race " where u had to run and reach the finish line and then winners took as many chocolates they can collect from there ...
I used to get ready early in the morning for the race ..on the same day .. get my shoes coloured white .. get on my best dress and then walk with a lot of pride towards the field .. on my way i would tell every one that i am going for the race .. even i told mom that i will also give her one chocolate when i come back ,she used to smile and tell me just one .. i told yes rest i will take it to my school ...
On reaching the field i saw every other participant .. they were tall guys .. with sports shoes .. i said myself dont u worry .. today u will win ... i used to be the same very bulky little boy then , the whistle was blown and then started off the race ..i used to run with all my pace and could see everyone moving ahead , i used to tremble and fall down ... again i stood ran ... fell down again .my lovely dress used to be soiled and those white shoes were brown with mud and lace open wide .. the audience used to look at me ..some laughed loud ..some said ooh poor chap ,, my friends were worried of me being hurt ... and i was always worried to run back again and i did so .. i reached the finish line ofcourse at last ... all would smile back at me even i gave a smile back ..
i knew i had been last .. uncle used to give me one chocolate and i came back home and shared it with mom .. no one was proud of me except me myself because i was always a shameless fellow as all said but was always full of hopes never hopeless ........

And today when i am almost broken i am just searching the same hope in me .may be then the loss was too small so i could be so .. but with time i hope the shameless strength i had must have been grown to face the toughest loss .. we often never are able to accept the greatest defeat of life, i wont say i am defeated coz still i love my angel as i did its just that she wont be there with me all through my life which was the most beautiful of my dreams .. but i cant be away from her ...for each moment my prayers will be near her ..and even her each little memory will be near me the first day i saw her ... the way she used to hide her face in class ..her funny assent when she used to think .. the way she used to laugh and scold each one and the best when she used to be angry nd turn that sweet face ...

Most suggest to forget her ... get busy with life ..but im too selfish how can i forget those treasured glimpses of her .i will keep it safe with me and on any cold winter night when im too alone her voice which i must say is sweeter than any of your angels will be the warmth of heaven for me ..and i even wont cry coz tears may take away few of her images from my eyes ..i will always give the so called shameless smile ... which i did ..laugh the way i did ... its just that i will now miss her more than i did .....

3 december .......2010 ....

Aah this day ... was like the day .. which i never wanted to have but was the real true day ...
haha ... dreams .... they are like the fake rides which end up .. after all even my ride haulted today ... and even my lovely bike first ever time got punctured ...
But the best thing even dreams had to halt ! i knew this day will come .. one day when i had to get into the real world which has never ran on hopes or dreams whatever !
i guess the day came too late .... rolf ... still now im having the moment on my mind ....haha
the best thing it was neither day nor night ... was a wonderful evening i guess ... awwww how bad i predicted my future wrong !! hmmm no worries now m happy :) never coz of the negative answers or symptoms but coz of there was some answer to all dreams which i thought life was ....
Landing on reality it was tough .. even my best of the buddy my bike who used to carry me to wherever i loved to had taught me that i even got to manage without it ....
i am never hurt ... coz beggars never go for charity and i have a job to heal others so cant just be hurt .... but then i am seeing whats life ... which i have to face it alone .finally out of fairy tales saying and stories ....
haha why is these words turning hazy i just cant see them clear ... so ending the days experience here .. oops i forgot neither day nor night was the time haha .... what a dream i had for this time ... when i was little kid my grand mom used to tell me stories ..they were so lovely ... i always asked her i want a bigger story ... long story she used to tell me lots and lots but each ended .. i cried and asked nooo this was small i said " bada bahut bada eithu mamu ghara jaen lamba gapa kuha " she always used to smile back and say dear every story has its end one day or the other ....
she was so true ... one day each of us have to face reality ... m happy ... happiest .... from the stars skies oceans and fairy tales m standing on earth and all set to run good .. in my life ....

Most beautiful dream .....

I closed my eyes with a smile ...
The blue ocean was all i could see ..with the waves touching the lovely earth ..
standing with u on the crystals of sand ...
I was as happy as the rising sun ...

The glow of the sky was in your eyes....
and you seemed as the most beautiful pearl of the oceans...
The breeze around filled the air with the aroma of the most beautiful buds ..blooming into flowers ..
Staring at you ..i forgot the beauty of the rising heavenly clusters .... the sun . the moon .
I was in love with u ... could just see myself in your eyes ..... '
Your lips uttered the softest voice ...
the charm of which even calmed the roaring oceans .... even the water would be sweet ... if it touched your lips ....
Making me amazed i just uttered !! " IS this a dream !!"

A crab from those crystals of sand ..gave a cut on my toes ...
I was bleeding with pain ...i just blinked my eyes ....
It was just so dark around ..with my eyes open wide ...
I was smiling though the tears were rolling down my eyes ...
I Just wiped them off and ...walked ahead .. walked and walked as long and far as i could ...
But deep in my heart i knew ... " I HAD SEEN THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DREAM ...."

NOW . I WONT .....

Each moment passed with u .. in my thoughts .
Now i wont let the moments haunt me again ...
Your smiles were the prettiest ...
Now i wont stare back again ..it haunts me more ..
I wanted to close my eyes holding your hands ..
Now i wont ..some memories have already buried me alive .in the grave ..
Each night i was in paradise ..where u were my angel ...
Now i wont ever dream .it has already given me many sleepless nights ...
I had fallen in love with you ...
Now i wont ..i have fallen deeper in pain ..
I LOVE YOU ....
Now i wont blame you ... i have blamed and cursed myself for it loved u ..
Now i wont fall on my knees to beg life for happiness...
Now i wont let the sky mock at my tears ..
Now i wont even be in love with life ...
Even now i wont believe my heart was true ... coz it loved u ...

JUST forget it ...........

If i close my eyes ..i find u on my mind ...
But then a silent whisper comes ,saying " just forget it ! "

If i turn the lovely pages of my life ..i find u on each page ..smiling like angel..
But then those pages end with a tag ," just forget it ! "

If i see a dream , where in i see angels and paradise ... i find u as the prettiest angel of all ..
But then the dream gets shattered ..when the hell sounds ," just forget it !"

If i hold on a breath out of the busy life .,, i find u as a reason to smile ...
But then ..I find a kick of time yelling at me ," just forget it ! "

If i am crying and smiling for no reasons whatsoever ..i find u in my thoughts ...
But then i have to give a deadly laugh and say ...,"just forget it !"

AND .. If its a battle field ..where i got to fight ..i find u .. as the only reason to win ...
But then with my last drop of blood dipped on the sword says .., " just forget it ! "


Getting a life of these if and but !!! If god asks me to live
I will answer " just forget it ! "

A life of mine without my angel " JUST FORGET IT ! " .............................

TRUST ... really unbreakable ...

While now everyone is speaking that the world has lost trust .... most of us have lost this very key elements .. faith and trust .. which for once were the key to happiness ...
BUT trust has never failed ... here it goes ....


Each day rises the sun in the east ..breaking the dark skies ......

The lovely moon showers it calmness when we are lonely ...
And the blinking stars glitters as pieces of diamonds ... making us feel alive ...

WILL THEY BREAK YOUR TRUST ......

Nature nurtures each of us with love ....
The blue skies keeps us under its soothing breeze ...
And the lovely trees feeds us with sweet berries ....


WILL THEY BREAK YOUR TRUST .....

Each mother feeds her child , delicately as feathers .....
And a father protects being strong as the armors ....

WILL THEY BREAK YOUR TRUST ....


Often we cry ...
Often we break apart ....
Trembling with fear ....
Nevertheless ,,, Trust lies so near ....


Often we think , the loved ones break it ...
Often we cry being cheated ...
Never we know what to trust ...
But it goes as simple as this ...
TRUST YOUR LOVE ..NOT THE ONE YOU LOVE ....
for persons may break your trust ...

Never shall the love for them break.

Even if they break your trust ..
Even if they break your trust ...
just remember these .........


The forces of natures stand on your trust ..
Even god seeks his existance with your trust ..else would be just a piece of stone ...
If you trust your love ....
and even if the person you love breaks them apart ...

" Your TRUST on love will join the things back " :) :)

THE MORTAL MUST DIE .....

A bit saddy day :( today someone said me .. not to talk with her anymore :( .. i dont know why ..i was just joking with her on a photo posted by my friend ,, never was i so hurt , some people are so far from life and the only happie thing u have is u can sometimes talk with them when u like ..and when those moments are snatched away from u ... its so bad .. but thats just beacause of the mortal in u ......

here goes the little poem....

Never had u been away from my dreams ...

but were far away from my life ..

Never was i so in happiness until u were there ....

but more were the pain with the cries when .. u were not there ..

yes .. i do .. i do love you and so will i for the rest of the time ..

..but ... u were an angel .. and me .. just a mortal ..

My heart bleeds more .. with your name ..and i swear ..

i just love the pain .. yes i do love the pain ...

Never was i so selfish , never was i so hurt ..

until i thought of ME and not WE ....

MY dreams were just mirage but were so true .. ofcourse none began without u ...

haha .. even i knew i was not made for u ..

yes it hurts ... when the one u love is not with u....

yes it hurts .. when the one u love is not with u ...

but thats all coz of the mortal in me ...

I never say my love will ever die .. nor am i a prince for my angel ..

i just wish the mortal in me must die ...

i just wish the mortal in me must die ,,,,

because thats the only cause of my pain ..

if ever my words can reach u .. "

i love u .. i miss u ... but wont trouble u ...

yes u .. just u .. are my angel and i love u .. i love u ... i love u .....

HOW can i forget u !! .... its just the mortal in me must die .....

A GLIMPSE of you .....

These were written on the first day .. i saw my angel .. updating it now .. quite old poem of mine .. not a poem but are few lines .. which i wrote for her ..



A GLIMPSE OF u ....

A sweet breeze of air went through my eyes ...

i just stood by to say " love is in the air "...

My heart knocked in my chest .. just to say

"I am no more yours "...

Astonished was I because never before was i so still ...

Even never before was I so amazed ...

Even never before was I so so in love ....



As if the first dew of the morning touched the petals of rose ..

As if the sweetness of heaven was in your lips ...

As if the ANGEL of heaven was some where near me ....



Was it a dream .. or was it just a Mirage ...

I never knew what it was.... but whenever ..some one asks me

Whats the beauty of heaven ...

I just give a smile and say

"Its a glimpse of you ..."

I LOVE U MY ANGEL ....

This little poem is for all the mom around the world

Turning my each cry into loveliest of the smiles :)

Holding my tiny little hands to make me walk ....

Standing beside me in this cruel world...

You made me stronger each day ..

Even in the darkest of nights haunting me like hell :(

your voice around make me feel in heaven :)

Just a day is not enough to say how special are u

coz coz coz " MAA TU TAH WORLDS BEST " :) :)

LIFE TAKES WHAT IT NEEDS

Life takes what it needs ...........

Life is long as the river ...

ups and downs .jumping and running its goes on on and on ...

passing by the lovely forests just like a mans first love ....

its freezes and stops wanting never to move across..

the river bleeds into parts with pain yet it quenches the thirst of all .

moving through the lovely forests it tries being there forever but has to move on

because life takes what it needs ......

The lovely forest is as beautiful as the angel but stays as it is ..the river passes by and they both never meet....

sometimes the angry river explodes in a flood ..but comes back to its track its just because

life takes what it needs ,,,,

one fine day the river reached the ocean ....it grows into a huge huge ocean with power and pride .......but the pain it gets on the way makes it cry and the cries of a thousand rivers make the ocean salty as it is ...its just the pain of loosing ones first love ...

huh! but life takes what it needs

MISSING THE BEST ONE !!!

It was a night to enjoy ..but i was feeling the lonliness among the crowd ...

well 15th night was just the perfect one ..having the best time with friends and rex was superb in the college star night ..it was awsome !!!to add on to that the evening began with tinka tinka by another singer from their group !!!now that song was my fav ...if angel would have sung that i would have died with happiness...

friends were dancing with wine injected into them they were feeling in heaven ..but there was no wine in my lips it was wet with smiles i was too happy dancing at each beat which lasted 3 long hours i was almost crazy ...but then in between i was feeling as if angel was near me

i was on knees sitting down and looking at the dark sky searching my angel to say i love u

but no one was there it was a unique experience it was noisy with music around and i had started shouting" love u angel marry me i cant live without u " and saying these i felt great i was smiling and suddenly some tears rolled down my eyes i never knew was i happy or was i sad .....

returning back home i was just trying to recall those moments which i never had before was i happy or was i hurt due to lonliness !!i dont know but for sure one day i will be dancing with my angel :)

When u are fit : ALL IZZ WELL

Hey ...im on diet i got to get slim : yakkkk i hate this line ......

Say me one think how does it feel when a youth of say 18 to 25 is on diet

just beacuse he or she has to get fit ..yakk u know what it shows you are incapable of eating what u love ..actually the rule goes simple burn what you eat ..if u can burn it all u just can take whatever u feel like ...here are few applied tricks ..for one who love food and at the same time fitness i tried them all lost a 20 kg round so im sharing with you ..i wont say things change in few days but i assure a better health than today ,,and that too without the diets yeaaah ....

1.Drink chilled water it helps loose calories

2.1km running along with workouts in gym .well spending a hour a day for yourself is no bad deal !!

3.hmm eat what u love no problem .just make sure the extra oil is soaked out with tissue .

4.u love 10 of them well have 5 at a slower rate .take the same time to consume 5 as much as u took for the 10 u get the taste ass well gain a bit less calorie.

5.love u honey...i mean luke warm water with honey at the start of the day gives u a great fitness

6. if u are non vegeggie have fish substitued to chicken ..for my good veggie friends have curd it helps ..well i would suggest for a veg diet it helps a lot in mental peace and control anger that just a suggestion one may start with a veggie life ..

Well these wont help u with being sarukh like sik packs or ghajini like 8 packs but ..certainly u look better and gain stamina ..so next tym u have a gud race with your friends

HAPPY LIVING .....

MY very first poem ......

somethings are made to be tested

somethings to be tried ..

somethings are to be digested

and somethings may touch your mind ....

sometimes im lonely

and sometimes i love to be alone .

sometimes im sad and sometimes a act being the happiest .

somethings are to be simply aimed at

and somethings are got by fortune ..

somethings are worthy in their own land

and somethings are made worthful bringing them out of their shell..

sometimes i am exhausted with work ...

sometimes i feel worthless without the tasks ...

sometimes i feel to be with the crowd

sometimes i dream to be standing apart ....

somethings are good in books

somethings are beautiful to eyes ...

somethings may be worthy enough and useless many a times.......

Well somethings and somtimes cant be justified many a times ...

now this poem might a bit bad coz the very first time i tried my hands on poem hope i get better !!!