Its worth waiting for .the .....MOMENT

Its so early ..and yet i have been updating a few more lines to my blog .. but believe me the days are going on as some bloody years .. but now well i must say i am lucky i found a sight of something which makes me feel so good that i felt like sharing them with you .... now i dont even know how right i have interpreted the stuff
but still its worth sharing i guess .....


It has been about more than several years from now when there was a super cyclone ..it had almost broken away many trees ..taken away many of the lives and even there were so many broken monuments .
Now it was so dark since few days because of the weather things were gloomy and dark and the sunrise today made me feel to peep out of the window...
Just to see how does the place looks it was so green around ..i could just recall those days when everything was broken around the place the trees and the swings in the children's garden .. then i stared at those broken see saw which was lying as it was ...it had even lost its color and was rusted .....but the trees around had grown greener and the flowers....looked much more beautiful than it were in those days ...

I thank the person in charge of maintenance of the see saw its because i have learned the most beautiful and hopefully the best lesson that can never leave me broken and sad until i have my life ...


I had forgot that i am a human ..i found myself just as the lifeless see saw which was broken and needed someone to come for its rescue to rebuilt it and in fact i was looking for such sympathy... ..oh!! i forgot to look at those green trees which were again blooming with greenery .. and now i have known the fact well that things which have......Life can never loose the battle to be happy and prosper ..it just need some time and it will be so again ...

May be i have to wait for some more time may be the moment has not arrived ...but then love never takes years to arrive its just a moment of time ..it just took a moment to notice the tree which has bloomed again and fall in love with nature .. i wont just stand as the lifeless see saw ..I am alive and will prosper as the trees.... until one day she feel what i felt for her ..and even my faith lies on that very moment which must come one day and its worth
waiting for that MOMENT ....

Life is just like the tree whose roots are like the love in your life and earth is like the hope which nurtures it ...may be broken but always it will bloom on its own until it proves its worth ... and if u think to uproot the roots from the soil ..u can always find being just as the dead see saw falling there on the ground pleading for a help

I am still alive ..and learned from those trees full of life ... happy to wait for that MOMENT ..which is worth to wait ............and even happily waiting for death to brace me if it comes before the moment

SHAMELESS .... never ...HOPELESS.....

Its been 2 days ... now i even dont get words for writing a little poem .. to describe my thoughts ..
but today i am able to recall an incident when i was a kid .. its about a race we called it " chocolate race " where u had to run and reach the finish line and then winners took as many chocolates they can collect from there ...
I used to get ready early in the morning for the race ..on the same day .. get my shoes coloured white .. get on my best dress and then walk with a lot of pride towards the field .. on my way i would tell every one that i am going for the race .. even i told mom that i will also give her one chocolate when i come back ,she used to smile and tell me just one .. i told yes rest i will take it to my school ...
On reaching the field i saw every other participant .. they were tall guys .. with sports shoes .. i said myself dont u worry .. today u will win ... i used to be the same very bulky little boy then , the whistle was blown and then started off the race ..i used to run with all my pace and could see everyone moving ahead , i used to tremble and fall down ... again i stood ran ... fell down again .my lovely dress used to be soiled and those white shoes were brown with mud and lace open wide .. the audience used to look at me ..some laughed loud ..some said ooh poor chap ,, my friends were worried of me being hurt ... and i was always worried to run back again and i did so .. i reached the finish line ofcourse at last ... all would smile back at me even i gave a smile back ..
i knew i had been last .. uncle used to give me one chocolate and i came back home and shared it with mom .. no one was proud of me except me myself because i was always a shameless fellow as all said but was always full of hopes never hopeless ........

And today when i am almost broken i am just searching the same hope in me .may be then the loss was too small so i could be so .. but with time i hope the shameless strength i had must have been grown to face the toughest loss .. we often never are able to accept the greatest defeat of life, i wont say i am defeated coz still i love my angel as i did its just that she wont be there with me all through my life which was the most beautiful of my dreams .. but i cant be away from her ...for each moment my prayers will be near her ..and even her each little memory will be near me the first day i saw her ... the way she used to hide her face in class ..her funny assent when she used to think .. the way she used to laugh and scold each one and the best when she used to be angry nd turn that sweet face ...

Most suggest to forget her ... get busy with life ..but im too selfish how can i forget those treasured glimpses of her .i will keep it safe with me and on any cold winter night when im too alone her voice which i must say is sweeter than any of your angels will be the warmth of heaven for me ..and i even wont cry coz tears may take away few of her images from my eyes ..i will always give the so called shameless smile ... which i did ..laugh the way i did ... its just that i will now miss her more than i did .....

3 december .......2010 ....

Aah this day ... was like the day .. which i never wanted to have but was the real true day ...
haha ... dreams .... they are like the fake rides which end up .. after all even my ride haulted today ... and even my lovely bike first ever time got punctured ...
But the best thing even dreams had to halt ! i knew this day will come .. one day when i had to get into the real world which has never ran on hopes or dreams whatever !
i guess the day came too late .... rolf ... still now im having the moment on my mind ....haha
the best thing it was neither day nor night ... was a wonderful evening i guess ... awwww how bad i predicted my future wrong !! hmmm no worries now m happy :) never coz of the negative answers or symptoms but coz of there was some answer to all dreams which i thought life was ....
Landing on reality it was tough .. even my best of the buddy my bike who used to carry me to wherever i loved to had taught me that i even got to manage without it ....
i am never hurt ... coz beggars never go for charity and i have a job to heal others so cant just be hurt .... but then i am seeing whats life ... which i have to face it alone .finally out of fairy tales saying and stories ....
haha why is these words turning hazy i just cant see them clear ... so ending the days experience here .. oops i forgot neither day nor night was the time haha .... what a dream i had for this time ... when i was little kid my grand mom used to tell me stories ..they were so lovely ... i always asked her i want a bigger story ... long story she used to tell me lots and lots but each ended .. i cried and asked nooo this was small i said " bada bahut bada eithu mamu ghara jaen lamba gapa kuha " she always used to smile back and say dear every story has its end one day or the other ....
she was so true ... one day each of us have to face reality ... m happy ... happiest .... from the stars skies oceans and fairy tales m standing on earth and all set to run good .. in my life ....