The Last Letter .....

To God ....

I tried not to explain nor talk .. as you said silence is sometimes better than words so i did .. but that silence is making me feel as if death has been presented to my life ! Tired and exhausted
i have been by now ..sorry i could just not be strong as i said .forgive me for those lies ..
I guessed she was someone like you .. she was an angel .may be somewhere i have lost myself in loving her ..i have been missing myself much these days ! but i have no regrets ..its too alone here not a speech alters this pain of missing her ..may be her words were what i wished for !

Just growing weaker these days ..dont even know where the bunch of smiles have lost which you gifted me ! was i wrong some where? do say me will sort it out .. I have done everything i could to forget her ..you said sacrifice ! if you love someone .. fine ! not a sign of grief for that.. not even a drop of tear ..my blood does not permit that ..may be you gave her reasons why she cant love me ! but i have no reasons even why i love her and may be a million reasons why i must love her ! dont worry i will not trouble you god saying those reasons but will ask you to reason out " why did u ever fill in hope and dreams to my thoughts ! "

Its too tough,, everyday i end up with a promise not to know who she was .. forget her but the other day with the sunrise ! I fall in love with her again .. even its long i heard the sweetest voice on earth yet i live with those few words which stays alive in me .. and very happy about it ...

May be she will never ever come into my life ! nor do i beg for this.. but i beg you to hold me strong as u always did .. I promise you not to lament over what i lost in my life .. I promise not to be weak ..I promise to pay back what i have been for ..I promise to prove my words with actions ..and I HOPE that you be there with me ..because being a human its too tough to stand strong with this loneliness yet you always blessed me with all luck ..i have just forgot them!! please do remind me of those in my dreams for now dreams of her haunts me ...

I know you will always guide me ..I trust you .. thanks for everything . did i sound like a looser !! its just i loved her but you have given me a life and yes i will not let it loose anything any more .. I will move with more of actions and less of words ..and i PROMISE ...


Yours faithfully
your love :)