The last laugh of college !

Today was our farewell night ! dont exactly know ... feeling weird .. may be the fear that i am going away from friends who were so gud to me ! When sad ..alone and hurt they heard me .. Made my stupid jokes ! a hit!! laughed a lot on them ! i know these days will never come back

Why does every good thing goes away ! i am not so strong to happily let everything go away ! yeh may be i fear loneliness .. but who the fuck i am ! just a bloody mortal who has no control on life ! or may be some one who promises every other day ! to be strong and walk again with all pride ! yes may be i am one of those who has a last laugh on life every day ! i am not drunk i never feel like having a peg of it ! coz i believed if my angel was near me i could have talked with her everything that makes me happy and sad .. a hug would be enough to let all pain life offers get washed off !
And today i felt that even my friends who were there near me will soon be going away ! i was afraid i dont know what i had been doing since few hours may be i had been near her house shouting out loud i love you ! may be i am bit afraid of loneliness .. now i cant laugh at all problems of mine ! There is no fuking joke left to not let my tears stop rolling down ! May be i am a big looser in life ..i dont even know if i can stand back on my promises made to life .. may be i wake up tomorrow and feel everything is ok and move on ! but for this moment i am finding it all alone and the glow of smiles fading away .. i love all my friends and my angel ! every one has gone away !! i know life is not the way we want them to be ! May be i will make new friends ! but everything around is mean ! even life it takes all they wish to ! who hears what u wish for and dream about ..
Yes there were few friends who cared about them heard me talk what i felt had a patience to know all i speak about and most of the words were bull shit ! still they smiled and said me " hey u are right ! " i love you for these ... angel i love you too .. But i had left dreaming about it ..it was just today i was afraid so i recalled a few dreams of mine ..which began with you ...
LIFE IS MOVING ! I WILL TOO GO ON ... JUST A WEAK HUMAN ..i get weak sometimes .. but trust and faith of few people had hold me on .. i will walk again with all that strength again ! for this was my last laugh ..with my friends .. i promise whenever we meet ... i will be the same guy to pull ur legs ..and do hear me then ! may be i wont be such a great one to hear but i trust you all ...